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i has one now.

More coming.
Thanks to those who have believed in me so far. :heart:
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So I really want to post more things... I've grown so disinterested in showing the community what I do in school, and I don't really know why. That's why I haven't been posting much work: the things I'm doing half the time I don't know if I even should be posting because I don't really like all that I'm putting out.

Some of it's all right, and sure I am a harsh critic - but on the whole, I'm not really emotionally invested in any of the work I'm putting together. Maybe in Joe's class (which right now is Type 2) but other than that, I'm very dissatisfied with my experience at ILIS.

I feel like I made a huge mistake (and yes, yes I did) when I left ISU - but on the same hand, I didn't know at that point what I wanted to get into - and it was at the point where telling my parents I would want to return there again would be kind of ridiculous, and anyway I don't know how much of it I really liked... the point is that I wish I would have did art when I was going to a state school. This trade school stuff is kind of bullshit. The teachers I get are good about 40 percent of the time, and granted while the ones I get are amazing - the ones that aren't suck and are a complete and utter waste of my time and money.

Then of course we have saturday classes because in three years from now, us going on Saturdays will make enough money for our school to renevate the top floor of our building so that we can have a culinary program in addition to the art.

A culinary program that I have absolutely no affiliation with nor would I be entering. A culinary program that will start to be built up two and a half years after I finish MY time here.
But you know, me going to school on Saturdays is making that dream come true.

...And that's why I hate my school. I've been here a little over a year and a half now. I feel like I wasted that year and a half. Now I have to put the final year and a half together, and continue the seemed lie.

Is it? I don't know, but I sure as hell feel like my degree that I will be obtaining is more or less a joke.

I think the school, with my money in their wallet, is laughing, but I sure as hell am not.


When something makes me feel motivated again, I'll post.
Nat
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TBH I just wanted the ranty, whiny post gone.
Still here. Expect updates in the near future.

Nat
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I have had one hell of the past 2 quarters.

I thought that getting into Art School was like, a ticket to the train that rode in the direction I wanted to go. I didn't know that the ticket was going to cost more than I had in my pocket.

I understand that everyone is going through rough times because our economy is going down the shitter. I understand that I probably shouldn't be complaining... it's just that it seems it is virtually no different than it was in HS...

let me illustrate to you verbally what I am talking about:

in HS, I remember one day while sitting in the lunch room as a senior, a girl behind me prattling loudly about her new car. She had just turned 16, so Mommy and Daddy bought her a brand new Mustang convertible. But, she said, it wasn't red like she'd asked for, it was black. So she said she'd be taking it back and seeing if they could switch to a red one for her.

What?


In college, for our Advanced Photomanipulation final, we had to get it printed and professionally mounted - which would be all right I guess if it was an 8 by 12 or something, but it was 24 by 36. I understand that in the real world several things like this are printed out by companies... but you don't see people printing out their works like this all the time... I mean, I don't think so anyway. Fact of the matter is, there are people who during their finals are working a full time job and going to full time school - I don't know how they manage it. I know that I am not only living check to check, but my bank account is currently negative... and I am in a wee bit o' debt to my parents. It's pay-off-able... but certainly not while I'm taking classes. Especially when they spread you out over multiple days and you're a commuter student. I hate the fact that 1/5 of my pay immediately goes to my gas mileage.

And then there are the people whose parents pay for everything.
Who complain about the work.

1. If you're getting a free ride, then keep your damned mouth shut about the amount of work you're doing. You certainly aren't working in addition to your schooling, so you have no reason to complain.

2. There are a lot of SHOULD and SHOULD NOTS about the world that I wish I could fix. I know I can't. I just see things and wish that they WERE fixable.

I guess I'm just venting, but it's so rough right now. I wish I could go back in time and tell my younger self to put away money... to not "seize the day" at every opportunity. If you seize too MUCH of the day, you won't have any left to seize later on... or something. I know what I'm trying to say there, believe me.

I feel that I'm learning a lot while in school.. but also that the school is screwing me over with money. I know that non-art-schools have a tendency to do this as well, but not nearly to the degree that art school seems to. I'm saying this and I'm RECEIVING lots of financial aid. That means that in addition to you know, showing up for class, I actually have to make decent grades, which isn't always easy when you're also working a job.

Someone mentioned that it isn't the grades that the people who hire you look for; it's your portfolio. They said don't worry about making decent grades, just worry about making things look good. It's hard to do that when your ride to school depends on your grades. I'm just doing as well as I can, and hoping that the following does not occur:

1. I get an ulcer
2. I fail out of art school
3. I don't fail, but my financial aid is revoked due to barely passing grades
4. I fall further into debt with persons other than my family
5. I forget who I am
6. I continue smoking cigarettes

really it's a vicious cycle. I've already blabbed enough here... and really, if you know me fairly well, you probably have heard all this already. I just...

I feel not as motivated as I have in the past. I want to be doing something outstanding again, and I feel that I have so little time to do anything anymore... and I really feel suffocated with work/school/stuff for family.  I wish there were something to alleviate all things; it's like the stress in my life is making my... condition... pregnant with nervousness... and I need to either birth the massive stressball, or just seriously lose the stressors as weight or something, I don't know. Hell, I don't know why I'm making these ridiculous analogies.

let's try all this again as a recap:

   a) Finals are finally through
   b) They've been rough the past 2 quarters
   c) Sometimes I feel like my school fucks me over, but then I realize that schools are businesses too and they need to survive. It helps me understand the situation a little better, but it certainly doesn't make me feel better about it by any means.
   d) I want to feel motivated again to be doing things that I enjoy, I feel like I haven't been in a class like that for awhile now
   e) at least I know people love me
   f) rich whiny kids need to stop sucking the teat of their collective parental unit and go find out what it's like to work in the real world. I think I'm only saying this because my parents don't monetarily support my decision to go to Art school... so I feel envious of anyone whose parents actually do :(
   g) I'm really glad I'm on break and likely will be getting plastered from time to time this holiday season. Sometimes the getting plastered assists in the motivation... in ways you never would expect



I'm leaving you guys that have read this far with this:

Thanks for supporting me.
Thanks for listening.
Thanks for being part of this community. Sometimes I leave for odd lengths of time, and then come back. I just know that dA is going to be around for a long time to come, and the past 6 years have treated me quite well. I'm glad to be a member, for what it's worth to me (even if sometimes it might be bitching in an online public journal), and for what it's worth to you.

Peace.

Nat Fisher
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I'm not dead, I'm just not really around all that much. A better update will follow; one with lots and lots of deviation updating.

<3
Nat
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There isn't a whole lot going on to talk about.

School has been (somewhat) raping my soul... I feel like I need to do well there, but so many issues at home have been impairing my ability to actually work on them (things like people in the house INTENTIONALLY shutting power off when I'm trying to work on projects, all right... wtf) While I know that I need to get through just another year and a half, it feels like this first year probably should have been the easiest. I feel like I'm moving into the brunt of everything, and worried that my workload will exceed the time limits I have for myself.

Keep in mind that in order to keep going to art school, one must be able to afford it. If I can't pay for supplies, I can't create the projects to hand in to get the good grades to continue getting paid to take courses... because I could never afford the classes on my own, so I look to grants, scholarships and loans.

And with the economy, folks... -_-;

But yes. I wish there were an easy fix, a way for me to not live where I do. The only time I'm able to get things done is during the mid-late afternoon and evening. Unfortunately, that's the majority of my class schedule, so I'm forced to try and do the work during the day, which doesn't fly with... other members of the family that reside in this household.

It's a rock.
It's a hardplace.
It's a me, Mario.

I'll persevere, but it's going to take some time to figure out how to navigate the gauntlet whilst blindfolded.

In other news, I'm extraordinarily thankful (thankful to my utmost, even!) that I have the support and care of my very close friends, of which there aren't many :) I have many acquaintances, true - but those persons I call friend are countable really, on my hands. And they've been what's held the quivering mass of psyche that is trying to survive together. So thank you for that, guys. I really do appreciate it...

Even though the majority of you won't even see this message... somehow that makes it better to me.

So yes, you're getting pictures here and there, but not a whole lot of art from me. I know, I'm sorry for that.

Things will pick up again in time.
Oh and hey, my birthday is coming up soon. Anyone who would be down with getting me a subscription? I'd just think you were really cool :P
I haven't had a subscription for awhile, now. I miss it, kinda, hehe.

Anyway

Just wanted to update anyone that cared to know...
I'm alive
doing mostly well
totally twitterpated
also frustrated in a different manner
and wanting to just be over and done with school... and move on to brighter things,

To work
not toil.

Isn't that everyone's goal?

Nat Fisher
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This quarter makes me cry.

That is all.

If I end up failing stuff, I'll retake it, for sure.

And end up another quarter in -_-;;;
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Been far too busy.
It's been taking a bit of a toll on my psyche. We'll cross our fingers and hope this quarter goes much better than it has started out -_-;

Expect an update with the Alton pictures - they finally got onto my computer. When I have time, I'll tweak the ones I need to and get as much as I can up here (that I find artistic)... so, yeah. Granted, it's all shot with the power shot, so I certainly didn't get some shots that I probably could have... but hey, it was just about three days. I had fun :)

Other Photo opportunities arising in the next few weeks:

1. Renaissance Faire

2. (maybe) Forest Preserve? Random buildings? When I go out to see :iconpookeybutt: (Which I need to set up :o

3. Galesburg, IL (to visit Amy, Steve, Cat Stevens, and Charlie! YAY!)

4. Whenthehellever I get out back to Blo-No. (I smell a trip coming up so that I can has girl time. :D

anyway... just needed to update. That's about it for now. It's incredibly late.
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is what I'm currently in right now. I haven't taken a math course for five years. I have no idea how this is going to work. *sigh*

An update.

1) Current Projects
+ staining windows
+ constructing a journal
+ completing a requested portrait

2) Future projects
+ frog with wings (redux)
+ custom journal (3rd)
+ Photoshoot for Courtney's district

3) Stuff I need to get done:
+ Upload/tweak Alton photos
+ construct shelving unit for bedroom
+ clean up room
+ buy air freshener (lavender/vanilla) refill
+ get checking account opened for paying back Tennessee Steve
+ stop hating math
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Just got back from Alton, IL.

Pictures to follow (Sadly only with the Canon)

Crossing my fingers that all goes well tomorrow on the first day of classes. We will see how I hold up with two part time jobs and going to school.

I am so tired.

I need to take out my contacts and drift off to something resembling sleep.

Nat
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It's really quite late.

I'm tired.

I want to go to sleep, but I keep seeing this journal pop up. My finals have been over. I'm about a third of the way through my summer break.
It's been long and slightly retarded.

Money is difficult to come by.
People seem to not understand this fact unless they, themselves have to live on the feeding, not the fed end - understand?

It's kind of annoying that way.


In roughly 2 weeksish (less than by a bit), hopefully :iconbleedingtiger: and I will be taking leave on a bit of an extended phototrip.

We plan to do a bit of ghost hunting a few hours south of here.

Any ideas on planning with a really tight budget? I already plan on packing a large cooler with meals for the 2 nights we'd spend out there... Let me know!
^_^

<3
Nat
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It's been a killer week on my psyche - and I think it shows. I'm sure I have a grey hair or two that've popped up as well as a handful of wrinkles. I definitely feel more sluggish and gross.

By one week from now I will be finished with this quarter and everything concerning it... which I think I'm happy with - I'll miss taking photos with the D70 :( I think it'll be a little less easy to get a hold of now that I won't be in photo-anything.

That doesn't mean I won't take shots - I will - they'll just probably generally be with my Trusty Point-and-shoot...

...which eventually I need to replace. After almost 4.5 years with it, the camera's getting fairly beat up and it's pretty much outdated. I can get a similar camera now that does the same things for less than I did back then - and one's that is likely smaller than the one I have now :) (And I remember when I thought the one I had was tiny, ha!)

So many things need to be replaced in my life right now - for example... my car, which is basically dead now. It's in the shop. More on that later, I suppose. We haven't yet been successful in finding a *new* (used) car to purchase - thus I've been driving the deathtrap, and this morning it conked out right outside of my house on the main road. Had to call AAA and get it towed to Steve's... *rolls eyes*

I need to contact Steak n Shake right now, because I started up finals, and forgot to give them my availability. It's as easy as picking up the phone, but as I missed the deadline for scheduling, will they hold it against me? Only one way to find out, I suppose.

It's been a really long quarter.
I just want snuggles, fires, tea, and, ha - kittens and puppies. Not at the same time.

*sigh*
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No seriously.

Ready for finals to *finally* be done -_-;
Learned jack in my photoshop class.

Still love my digiphoto teacher. He was surprised to find that I learned more in his class than Image Manipulation about PS.

Ha.

"--you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself//With these revisions and gaps in history//So let me help you remember//I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear//I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave--"

ugggghhhh

I screwed up my thumb playing softball last night.
I then proceeded to play Wii games to make myself less hurt.
I figured out how to bowl correctly :D
I also got to use the (fully loaded!!!) automatic Shotgun in Overkill *cheers* It kind of makes everything way too easy, but whatev.

ANYWAY

Wish me luck.

Nat
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I write, thus:

So at my "second" day of work I kind of wanted to beat the crap out of these high school boys. Why? Well, simply because staying for three hours to play bags when all you ordered was a coke, diet coke, 2 waters and fries AND THEN STARTED GANKING SODA... yeah I'm going to want to beat something... maybe, kinda sorta, I think.

I don't know, it really upset me that they were just having the other guy drink the soda. Like, okay, I'm sorry... just because it's bottomless doesn't mean you can give it to your friends who didn't order anything.  Oh, excuse me. He ordered a 75 cent side of fries.

I don't get it.

And then they had the nads to be snotty with me after I was like "Yeah I'm going to be putting that on your tab."
You know, when I was in a high school... I never "cheated" and tried to get around shit at a restaurant. If i stayed somewhere longer than a duration of a meal, I paid 2 dollars for every additional hour I stayed there per PERSON -_-; I still do this, but I generally no longer camp at restaurants. I certainly never went to bars. I mean, I work at a damned bar. 16-17 year olds should be leashed - or at least have a curfew that's actually enforced. Which means that Sundays, they can't go to bars. Then my life wouldn't be as depressing.

Like, okay, I knew I was getting a dollar from the table of 6 that only ordered soda and fries and came in to play bags at 2 tables for 3 hours.
Something's wrong there.

that's number 1. number 2:

It has come to my attention that I have learned absolutely nothing while in my Photoshop class.
My Digital Photography class and my significant other have taught me more in this quarter than the teacher has. This depresses me. How much does this class cost me, around a grand or something? So my money is being pissed away and there is nothing I can do about it? Not to mention the fact that I should be learning the ins and outs of the program in the INITIAL CLASS THAT IS BASED ON SAID PROGRAM... I'm going to get to Advanced Photoshop and still not know anything. Great. I love school.

number 3:
Buying a car.
Why is it that when I need something like a car... or an apartment... or really anything that I'm likely to be making payments on (so it's something expensivish) that apparently it doesn't become important that this is something that I need so instead of 'lets look at what's best for the customer,' it quickly moves to 'everyone wants to make a sale and will quite clearly lie through their teeth to do so'?  Wish me luck. And puppies, you can never have too many of those.

number 4:
DAMNIT, DADDY!

number 5:
My wrists ache like hell... so even if I had the opportunity to punch ANYTHING... I probably physically couldn't.

Yeah I needed this rant -_-;
Amongst other things... which could, in all actuality, probably amount to a number 6, but I've wasted enough time.
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Whatta Friday.

It seems to be one of those where no one is around for me to speak with, and I have all sorts of questions and randonimity. Yeah I made a word.

Apparently my movement was never turned in *raises eyebrow* so I'll have to re-turn it in -_-;;

I'm pretty much tired of taking pictures for photography class - but only because I don't like taking 50 shots of one particular type of thing (i.e. "night photography" or "macro") - I simply don't like doing that because then everything gets jumbled up - and I don't have the freaking Adobe Bridge that allows you to view the RAW images as actual thumbnails.

I swear that I'm growing grey right now.
Granted, I totally wouldn't have a problem with that.
If I go though, I go all the way grey, not this salt & pepper crap.


Anyway...
Schedule for this weekend:
1. Friday night -
   Some random bar in St. Charles has this band I am going to see. Albeit I'm not really going to see the band. I'm going to see Courtney because I miss the hell out of her. Stef too, I suppose, lol. Not excited about seeing Matt if he's going to be there -_-;
I have been trying to find some others to accompany me, but thus far have been unsuccessful. Jamie, you in? I will text thee :P

2. Saturday night - "second" interview with Steak n Shake... then on to Homework and no plans yet.

3. Sunday night - Homework and no plans yet.

I need a chill night. Sit back, watch some stuff. I'm a wee bit stressed with the end of school coming up... *sigh*

Blarg.

Anyway, that's the update!
Oh... and I'm looking for a new car, too. I'll try to remember to tell you all when I finally end up trading my deathmobile in. >_<
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In Image manip. Haven't gotten to talk to the teacher yet.

I really don't care for this class. I also totally thought I'd love this class.

Funny, that.


ANYWAY
There isn't much to talk about right now. Kinda sorta QUICKLY sloughing by. I'm not even sure I spelled that correctly, but whatever.

Quickly sloughing is more difficult than you think.

Glad it's Wednesday. Looking forward to finishing up some of my projects this week.
Not looking forward to Friday's class... as I apparently lost my flash drive? Not cool. Very not cool.

Welp

I just didn't want the extraordinarily long meme there :P

That's about it.

:peace:
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Centaur:
[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[x] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[x] You like to read your daily horoscope. [Usually the day after, haha]
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[x] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[x] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 7

Elf:
[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[x] Your five senses are extremely keen. (my eyes aren't *great* but everything else is off the charts)
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height. [Still is, even if I kept all the weight I gained last year. Odd.]
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible. [HA!]
[ ] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[ ] You look very young for your age.
[ ] You rarely get sick.
[x] You are a very hard worker.
[x] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 4

Fairy:
[ ] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[ ] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[x] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 4

Gnome/Dwarf:
[x] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.  
[ ] You are short for your age.
[x] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.  
[ ] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[ ] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 3

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[x] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you. (takes a lot, though.)
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[ ] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.  
[ ] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 4

Mermaid:
[ ] You love the beach more so because of the water than the shore itself.
[ ] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you. [Ratfish!!]
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[x] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[ ] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[x] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps you will work to stop that.
[ ] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 4

Vampire:
[x] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[ ] You are extremely pale.
[ ] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] You are not religious at all. (spiritual yes. Religious, not so much)
[x] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[x] The sun's glare annoys you all too often. [I'm somewhat light sensitive :/ Migraines :( ]
[ ] You hate food with lots of garlic in it. [I love garlic!]
[x] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips. [if romantic = sensual, yes]
[ ] You don't like sharp objects near you.
Total: 6

Werewolf:
[ ] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[x] You have a lot of body hair. [ -_-;; ]
[ ] The ability to shape shift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[x] You lack self control. [sometimes my passion does get the best of me >_<
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[x] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[x] You like to be alone.
[ ] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it. [this is a trick, amirite?]
[x] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total: 6

Wizard/Witch:
[ ] You love chemistry.
[x] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people seriously or jokingly say you're psychic.
[ ] The most amazing supernatural power to you is controlling the elements.
[x] You are a nature lover.
[ ] You have a strong sense of responsibility
[x] You spend a lot of time alone.
[x] You usually hang around with a certain animal all the time when you feel lonely.  [Canines.]
[x] You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[x] Cooking is one of your favorite things to do.
[x] You enjoy learning about Wicca and the occult.
Total: 7

Zombie:
[ ] You are pale.
[ ] You are hungry a lot.
[x] Many activities you do every day make you feel mindless, or like a drone.
[x] Most of the time you or a part of you is cold.
[x] You love to eat meat. (generally raw)
[x] You would resort to cannibalism if that was the only source of food. (I'd be the first one to turn, for sure)
[ ] You make grunts and moan a lot.
[x] You enjoy learning about psychology because you study the brain. [Mind, moreso than brain, but I'll bite, no pun intended]
[ ] You usually walk slowly.
[x] You are not afraid of seeing a lot of blood or getting a lot of blood on yourself.
Total: 6

Satyr/Faun:
[x] You are very passionate about the things you like.
[ ] You like to get drunk and dance.
[x] You're very amorous.
[x] You like art and music.
[x] You enjoy feasting with friends.
[ ] You love nature, but more for the animals than the trees and plants.
[x] You like getting rowdy and having a good time. (I'm not entirely sure what this entails, but it sounds all right to me)
[x] You laugh a lot.
[x] You love the chase almost as much as the capture. (sometimes moreso)
[x] You wish you had horns [hehehehe]
Total: 8



So I'm a Satyr/Faun?
Cool.
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Ugh

I'm doing all right, folks. Just to let you know. Been a snidge busy though... if I'm not talkative or commenty, that's probably why.

This quarter is draaaaagging so slowly for me -_-; I can't believe I've almost been here a year. (and still made no really great friends from classes, lol...)
I don't suppose that was my intent, though.

Stay tuned for some more Digital Photography.

Current projects:
Painted Glass Windows
Journal 1
Journal 2
Tarot Card Deck
**Lyrical Interpretation project
**Philosophy and Ethics project
**Night Photography project

** = for school

Uhhhhgggghhh
At least it isn't still hot outside. I loathe hot, and heart cool.

Sooooo... :peace:
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In class again.

1/4 finished with portraiture project for Digital Photography. Thanks to those who've helped thus far. ^_^

I have found that I enjoy learning from my friends.

Still need to work on motion photography -_-; I hate that particular project. It will be over soon.

Hope it isn't hurting my grade yet -_-;

Ummmm

Still have to pee.

Looking forward to this weekend...

Friday:
Possibly Jamie ^^
Some *movement* photos!

Saturday:
Moar photos this time w/ Lizly
Dinner and Zombie Slaying w/ Jon

Sunday:
I don't know if we're doing anything for Lynn for Mother's Day...
Moar photos, this time w/ Erin (hopefully :D)


That's about it hehehe
Waiting to hear back from Steak n Shake :P
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So...

It's May. That means I have to pay the storage unit again. This is unfortunate, as I don't have the funds :)

Even if I put together everywhere I've gone (and spent money at) this past month, I still come up under 20 (and that's where people have paid for me... thanks to you if you're reading this :o ) So it's not like cutting any expenses out would actually assist me...

So I'm trying to figure out if asking my father to lend me the money is going to go over poorly.

Looks like a position at Steak n Shake might be in my cards, which I wouldn't mind at all. Then I could actually pay people back... get my everything all figured out. It feels awfully surreal moping around this way.  I think the worst part about it is the fact that I keep checking back in with people and places I've left applications with...

...Most of the time I get "We can't work with your schedule" - the only day I can't work is on Wednesday, and come on, full timers work 6 days a week -_-; It's just a cop-out answer. I swear I just want to leave the schedule part blank, get hired, and then tell them Hey, I can work these times. You can work with me to deal with it, or I can find work elsewhere.  I really am a good employee, lol.

*rollseyes* YAY ECONOMY!

1. Mmmmm... monetary downfall
2. Omnomoinkoink swineflu
3. apparently Jurassic Park.

Step 4? Umbrella corp, kthxBRAINS!
Yes.
Zombies are so happening. I'm so ready for this.

I need to stop falling asleep while the teacher is talking, it totally makes me really confused. I go from whining about a job to... zombies.

To be fair, it was my answer to the question he asked... which was "Natalie, what do you dream about?"

Me: "...Me?"
him: "Yes."
Me: ". . .zombies :/"
*class laughs*

-_-;;;

Ah well. Keep meh in ur thoughts & prayers XD

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